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i have been producing music since i was about 10 or 11 years old. i experimented with free music making programs at first (BeepBox, SoundTrap, BandLab, etc) but my main starting point was in BeepBox.
later on i moved to make music on BandLab for a while. i bought FL Studio Mobile when i was 12 and had been making music off of that. i produced beats and recorded vocals on my phone (using the microphone from my earbuds)
when i started making music i didn't really know what genre i wanted to aim for. i only experimented with whatever sounded nice to my ear and went along with whatever compliments that style. at age 12 - 13 i discovered a few subgenres that i enjoyed and i wanted to interpretate my style into that form. my main inspirations of music were dekma, ghostofblu, WARYKID, UMSY, takizava. i really like those guys but dekma is my #1 idol :)
i used to do some kind of rap, mostly being influenced by artists like Ghostemane, ghostofblu, Depth Strida, and then i later on started doing scream vocals. i didn't know how to scream properly during these times so my throat would hurt a lot and i would need to hydrate myself often XD but then i started learning how to do metal vocal techniques. i wanted to develop a similar scream like ghostofblu, dekma and even some actual metal band vocalists like Corey Taylor (Slipknot), Ryo Kinoshita (Crystal Lake) and Chester Bennington (Linkin Park). i would watch videos on how to do certain vocal techniques (primarily false chords and fry screaming) and i practiced over and over again to get the sound that was comfortable for my throat and for my ears. did i sound exactly like the vocalists i wanted to sound like? nope. but did i develop my own style? hell yeah:)
at the time i started writing lyrics for my music i didn't strongly have any ideas of what to write about. that was until my early years of middle school (i was possibly 12 - 13 at this time) which was when i had developed worse symptoms of schizophrenia and bipolar disorder (according to my previous psychiatrist), and my mental health became severely damaged. although i was suffering mentally, i had a reason to write music. my childhood trauma, my conflicts with my emotions and my feelings towards other people had given me a chance to let it all out on the music that i made. i don't exactly have a specific genre (hence the reason why i mostly label myself as experimental electronic) but even though the style of the music changes from time to time, i always write down how i'm feeling into my songs.
for six years i have been suffering through my mental conflicts. i had tried therapy, i had been on medication, i took school counseling. nothing really worked out. my only solution was art and music. without my passion for creating art i don't know how long i would have really lived if i didn't have my love for artistic expression. i would also like to say thank you to anyone who actually supported me and who actually enjoys my work. only recently have i finally been open about my music and art and i want my supporters to know that i really appreciate you all. my dream to be a successful musician still remains solid and every day i try to reach closer to that goal.
